last night we went into the studio (after a long hiatus, i know) to finally do some good ‘ol recording. as i listened to the instrumental click track (of “cars”) through the headphones, i sang into a fancy microphone, and if you wanna know the truth, it sounded pretty amazing. i felt myself growing a cocky smile across my face as i listened to the sound of my own reverby voice echo through the headphones. but then i caught a glance of dan and matti, and surprising to me, they were not beaming with pride as they listened to me sing my heart out. instead, they appeared to be rather unimpressed with my vocal stylings. hmm. so, to see what was up, i took one headphone ear off but kept singing, just so i could hear what they were hearing — the stark reality of the reverbless world — and in an instant, i went from feeling like a vocal god to feeling like a tone deaf fool. without reverb, i was nothing. i sounded bland and rough around the edges.
i had a major loss of innocence in that moment… it felt like i just caught mom and dad hiding my presents under the tree on christmas eve.
but i really didnt want to lose the magic that i had felt just moments before. so, without publicly acknowledging my painful discovery, i slipped the headphone ear back on, and kept singing “cars”, reverb abound, until i re-convinced myself that my voice really did sound that good.
sometimes it’s better just to stay in the make believe 🙂